It’s been a while since my last blog, but I’ve been busy! Mostly with work, family, and general life and trying to keep my head above water! I don’t have enough hours in the day to release all the creative ideas that I have stored up, and my passion for music isn’t particularly compatible with my day job! I’m working on about 10 new songs at the moment and hoping to get some of them finished soon.
I have managed to find time to record a couple of “live” YouTube songs recently. One of them is a new song that I wrote a couple of months ago called Do You Not Know? and the other is a cover version of a song written by my friend Allan McKinlay and his friend Pete Crockett called Give Thanks To God. You can listen to them by clicking on the links. I hope you enjoy them – please like and subscribe to my fledgling YouTube channel!
I’ve also got a couple of gigs in the pipeline, so watch this space for dates and locations! I had my EP launch event a couple of weeks ago, which was great and a good chance to give more of my songs some air. I had some really positive feedback and I really enjoyed playing through a selection of the songs I’ve written over the past year. I also played a few of my songs as part of a time of worship at the recent CPA leaders conference. This again was a great opportunity and I loved sharing my them with good friends from around the UK. There is a vulnerability in writing, recording and playing songs for people, because they are a glimpse into my inner thoughts, struggles and walk with God, but when people are able to connect and identify with what I’m singing about, it is really satisfying, so I pray that I will have more opportunities to do this and that people will be blessed by them.
I have a constant struggle with the desire to spend all my time writing songs, recording, leading worship and performing my songs, and doing the things that are necessary to earn a living, support a family and do the job I’m paid to do! However, I’m reminded in scripture of the following verse:
Colossians 3:23 – Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.
I may not feel that I’m in the perfect environment to express and use my gifts and talents, but I have been given a work to do and I should work hard and diligently at what God has given me. At the moment there is nothing I can do to change my circumstances, and as much I feel a sense of frustration, I trust that He has my life in his hands and is directing my steps. Much of life is about being faithful and content in the small things and doing each day what is set before us. It is good to have dreams and expectations, and to aim high, but we can’t live in a constant state of longing for the next “big thing”. I have to regularly remind myself of this and I am learning to be satisfied in being who God made me to be, and doing what he has given me to do. He is more interested in my character and my obedience, than in what I can achieve for him. He is more concerned about how I love my wife and children than whether I write lots of songs. He looks more closely at how I treat other people than how well I play the guitar. Most importantly he wants me to have a relationship with and worship him before anything else. In everything I do, I need to work as though working for him, not myself or others.
That’s all for now!